Showing posts with label past. Show all posts
Showing posts with label past. Show all posts

Saturday, April 18, 2026

"Your Silence"


I have no excuse for hurting you
Saying
“I didn’t understand”
doesn’t erase your pain
When you stripped bare
our differences,
I built a defensive wall
to shelter our friendship
to protect us from the World’s invasive
discord and discontent
I begged for less
Your silence honors me





Copyright 2018 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman




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Saturday, December 14, 2024

"Background Noise"

  


            Sometimes, when I sit down to write, I’ve no idea what words will appear on the page. My diligence to my craft means I put pen to paper every day (or in this case fingers to keyboard) and simply write. Many of my journal entries recount mundane trivialities of a simple life, some dip into a distant past while others slip into a hopeful future. My thoughts may focus on something currently in the news, but it’s just as likely for me to focus on the fact that it’s Friday—again.
            Then those days come where I shove aside all of the ideas that pulse in the forefront of my attention and spend time concentrating on sighs, the impatient pant of the dog laying at my feet, the distant drone of the dryer as it whubs—background noise that lets me transcend the ordinary.
            Then I hear the words whispering to my subconscious. Soft. Seductive. Evasive. A whiff of perfume that lingers in an empty room. And I hold my breath, fearful that the slightest movement would frighten my words into flight. Send them scurrying back and deeper into darkness.
            So I hunker down on my haunches, hand held outstretched with palm open in supplication. I practice patience. Wait motionlessly, head cocked to the side so I can perceive the words surrounded by heartbeats.


Copyright 2014 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman
 
             

Tuesday, April 11, 2023

"Nostalgia"

 

The Crimson Rambler
Philip Leslie Hale, 1908   



masterpieces   
moments of custom   
memories of etiquette   
polite smiles  
curtsies and bows
the good ol’ days in softness 
a vivid palette of bold sunlight   
fields of flowers and fanciful fantasies   
gentleness, hope, grace   
perfection within illusion   
masterpieces   


Copyright 2012 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman


Thursday, February 17, 2022

“Morning Musings”


Deer in the morning at the park





            Yesterday’s misty gloom slicked the roads and sidewalks, making me hesitant to venture outside. However, today’s glorious sunshine enticed me from bed by 8 AM.  I couldn’t wait to tie on my Skechers and head for the park. I can now actually walk from my house to the park, do the hiking loop there, and return home without a single nag from my knee. My snail’s pace slowness means joggers on the trail loop me, but every step I take makes me sing, “Victory!”



My son and nephew in 1988


Feeding the ducks in 1988















            With today’s trek, my mind slipped back to all of the times we’ve enjoyed our local park. Passing the mother with her pre-school kids playing on the equipment shot me back to walking my son to the park in his red, wooden wagon. As I looped around the pond, ducks and geese stirred to see if I carried any treats with me. The park now has trails that are paved or graveled in areas that in the past bore feet hardened tracks. When I stood atop the dam today, I saw the past views overlaid with the present.

            Gratitude fills me that we have this lovely place to hike. I love that the playgrounds and baseball and soccer fields get daily use. Disc golf enthusiasts and dog walkers join in with those who fish in the lake. The park’s past, present, and future mingle in my mind as I walked today.


Copyright 2022 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman




Spring wildflowers at the park



    

Tuesday, April 23, 2019

"I Worry"



            Over the years, I’ve learned to channel my tendency to fret about every little nuance of life into major areas. It’s a sanity strategy that allows me to let the less important things “go” while satisfying my personal psychological need to control whatever I can. This Five Point Focus means I spend my energy on the bigger needs and wants for myself and my family. I thought I’d share these with my readers.

Money: 
            How much debt is too much?
            Should I work extra to get ahead?
            When will I feel financially safe?
Time:
            Am I spending enough time doing what I want?
            Will I make time to travel?
            Will I run out of time to accomplish my Want To list?
Health:
            Will I continue to be creative?
            Will my energy stay stable as I age?
            Will I remain accident/illness free?
Family:
            Are my siblings healthy, happy, and secure?
            Will my husband and son continue with their creative ambitions?
            Can we stay focused on the end goal for as many years as it 
            takes?
Right choices:
            Will the decision to stay in our neighborhood continue to be
             a good one?
            Will the new shift toward self-employment earn enough?
            Can I change the path I’m on as I get even older?  

Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman  

           


Friday, June 8, 2012

“Pledge to Honor”




four walls   
         love, duty, responsibility, need   
                     box me into near solitude   


pressed by decisions   
         I bare this weight without grace   
                     floundering   


the brace of your love   
         supports me   
                     alone I will fail   
with three   
                     I can survive   


longingly, I look to our past   
         ache for its loss   


I fear today   
I dread tomorrow   


         trying to fulfill my pledge to honor   


Copyright 2012 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman