Saturday, April 22, 2023

"Words"

Write for the sake of writing—
the practice and patience of putting
wordafterwordafterwordafterword
Was that the basis of our relationship?
Practice and patience and
wordafterwordafterwordafterword?
When you were with her, did you talk so endlessly?
Did you espouse and spout
wordafterwordafterwordafterword?
Was she expected to believe all you said?
To bob her head like an obedient dog?
So she now writes for the sake of writing—
the practice and patience of putting
wordafterwordafterwordafterword?





Copyright 1985 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman

"Pearls of Wisdom"



         Georgia impatiently paced across the parlor, pausing at the window to pull back the white lace panel. Anticipation sparked in her green eyes and splashed color across her high cheekbones. A tendril of her brunette hair coiled on her forehead in subtle defiance. She stepped away from the pane, her fingers adjusting the pleat of her lavender gown with nervous energy. She scrutinized the room for the hundredth time, seeking perfection in every detail. Carefully, she lifted a vase of fresh flowers from the center of a table and moved it to a sideboard. Her jewelry box rested on the table alone, showing off its delicate work. She wanted to impress her younger sisters with the treasures her husband showered upon her. She wanted them to envy her for her position as Bruce’s wife.
         At the sound of the bell, Georgia skipped to the settee and arranged her skirt to show off the sheen of the expensive silk. Her lips parted in a genuine smile as she listened to Gwyn’s soft voice ask the butler a question, as she recognized May’s deeper throaty laugh.
         “Georgia!” her sisters chimed in unison as the butler opened the door. In a whirl of cream and rose satin, they swept into the room and hauled Georgia off of the couch, ruining her carefully planned pose by hugging her tightly into their arms.
         “You look so lovely!”
         “Your house is beautiful!”
         “And lavender! Georgia, it’s such a perfect color for you!”
         Unexpected tears smarted Georgia eyes and spilled down her cheeks as she returned her sisters’ enthusiastic embrace.  “Oh, May and Gwyn, I’m so glad you’ve finally come!” She swiped at her tears and looked at her wet fingertips with bemusement. “I don’t know why I’m crying,” she began.
         “Oh, you’re just happy to see us!” May exclaimed. “We’ve missed you so much, too. I don’t know why Mother and Father resisted allowing us to visit you in London.”
         “But you are here—now!” Georgia kissed May’s cheek with affection. “Perhaps they will let you visit more.”
         Gwyn smiled as she sat in a chair, “I believe they didn’t want us annoying Bruce. Honestly, they only agreed to our visit here because you said you were lonely.”
         “Bruce spends most of his time in our London house,” Georgia admitted. “Why don’t I take you to your rooms, and then we can have tea and spend the entire evening catching up?” 


            Georgia worried her lower lip, a remnant of her annoying childhood habit. She straightened the shoulders on her gown one more time as she waited for her sisters to return. A trolley with her finest silver service sat near the loveseat. Cook’s renowned cakes and biscuits sat in decadent temptation. She knew Gwyn wouldn’t resist the sweet treats. She knew May couldn’t refuse accompanying their tea with tidbits of gossip. She wagered with herself that May wouldn’t make it through her first dessert before revealing Bruce’s indiscretions to her older sister.
            With determination, Georgia decided she would open the topic of her husband’s infidelities first. After all, she invited her sisters to her home for two reasons. She wanted to assure her family that she accepted all aspects of her marriage to her older husband. She also needed to know that they would stand by her decision to live with Bruce’s “short-comings.”
            When May and Gwyn appeared in the doorway, Georgia felt relief. As embarrassing as this conversation would prove, at least she would finally have someone to whom she could confide her feelings.
            “May, would you mind pouring?” Georgia moved to a nearby chair. “I want to talk to the two of you. It’s the reason I invited you here.” She paused while May filled the cups. “Mother and Father know, of course, what I’m going to tell you. I wrote them last month.” She sipped the hot tea, buying herself a moment for composure. Then she continued, “I have learned that Bruce engages in affairs with other people.”
            May’s hand fluttered a little, splashing tea onto the saucer she held. Gwyn’s cheeks flamed red as she inhaled deeply, and then held her breath. Neither of her sisters spoke.
            Georgia cocked her head, and narrowing her eyes, asked, “You know? Did Mother tell you?”
            “No,” Gwyn began cautiously, “No one’s told us anything. It’s—,” she shot a desperate look at May. “Well, Bruce did something . . . inappropriate . . .” she floundered to a stop.
            “To you?” Georgia gasped.
            “To both of us,” May carefully set her cup and saucer upon the table. “Remember how I kept trying to talk you out of this marriage?”
            Georgia’s face paled as she leaned forward in her seat. “I thought you were just jealous because of Bruce’s wealth and social standing. I was so hurt.” Her hand rested over her heart. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
            “I tried, but you got so upset. And you insisted that Bruce was absolutely perfect for you.” May faltered. “I didn’t have the heart to tell you.” She looked down to find her hands nervously clenching the fabric of her dress. “I never told anyone. Then when you invited us here, I didn’t even want to come because I feared seeing your husband again.”
            “And I kept bothering her until she told me why,” Gwyn continued. “When she told me, well—he’d done something similar to me. I was so ashamed.” Gwyn’s voice shook. “Oh, Georgia, you cannot stay married to this man!”


Wladyslaw Czachorski's The Little Treasure Chest

            “Yes, I can.” Georgia stood and walked to her jewelry box. “I made a promise, and my vow must be kept.” She sat in a chair by the table, leaning forward to open the box. “Come, look.” She opened to container and began pulling out the pieces her husband gifted to her, probably after each of his escapades. “Come look,” she repeated, “at what a man believes clears his conscience.”
            With her sisters seated at the table, she pulled out a diamond and ruby broach, a glittering flower. She fingered a delicately woven gold chain and toyed with a bracelet of emeralds. “Bruce believes these lovely pieces will buy my submission and my silence.”
            She carefully withdrew a strand of pearls. Their smooth perfection cooled her flushed skin. “My husband brought me these pearls last week,” she draped them over her extended arm. “They have a particularly beautiful luster, don’t you think.” Gwyn leaned against the back of Georgia’s chair to get a closer look as May shifted forward in her seat. A small smile tugged at Georgia’s lips as she tilted her head to appreciate the glow of the pearls against her skin.
            Sighing deeply, she gazed at her prizes. “With all of these other gifts, I didn’t know the truth about Bruce. I didn’t know the guilt he disguised. But these pearls,” she raised the strand and looked first at May and then at Gwyn, “These are pearls of wisdom.”

Copyright 2012 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman


             

Friday, April 21, 2023

"Too Much"


 
Loss
Sorrow
Hopelessness
Pain
 
Unfairness
Frustration
Rage
 
Passivity
Rigidity
Conflict
 
Loss
 
Suppression
Restraint
Tyranny
 
Harassment
Rationalizing
Torment
 
Deceit
Defamation
Extermination
 
Loss

 


 Copyright 2020 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman





"Something to Prove"

  

unnatural competition
sibling rivalries created and nurtured
by narcissistic manipulations
the alcoholic mother and enabling father
doling out love to the winners
the challenge evolves
 to plastic wives and drunken children
awards for misogyny and adultery
applause for cheats
 and deceits
victory gained
by zealous clannish unity
that punishes the different drummer
with ostracism and disdain
darkness shadows each generation
with something to prove

 

Copyright 2022 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman  


"Plans and More Plans"

 


overthinking
list making
best case scenarios
worst possible tragedies imagined
journaling predictions for infinite tomorrows
fluctuating daily between certainty and self-doubt
juggling multiple dependent  lives with limited reserves
 
nurturing
visions dreamt
viewpoints expanded outward
selflessly sheltering the weakest
returning to ritual’s comforting grace
strengthening spirit by dancing with fire
embracing obligations with the tenacity of hope
 

Copyright 2022 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman

 



 

 

"April's Fool"

  




I kneel in awe each spring 
 Worshiping nature’s rebirth 
Stomach flattening to Earth’s coolness 
My lens captures the first blush of blossoms 
The constancy of nature 
Makes me an April’s Fool 
Trespassing over field and farm 
 For one perfect shot

Copyright Elizabeth Abrams Chapman 2022




















"The Enemy Without"

 




my bliss
begins with rusted rake, scarred shovel
continues with ancient clippers that snap winter’s residue
pulses with knees planted to ground
thrives with bulbs separated, clippings rooted
grows with tipsy walls reset with careful hands
pushes skyward with dew dusted blades


my bliss
conquers the enemy without with patience
soothes with dappled sunlight
transforms death with restoration
mornings blend into afternoons
days meld into weeks

Copyright 2020 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman





Thursday, April 20, 2023

"There's A Pill for That"

 



headache or heartache; weight up or down
fungus or fever; face in frown
helpless or tired; skin with a red rash
anxious or cold; a nighttime hot flash
grab a cure-all; or rub a lotion
pop an antidote; or down potion
drink elixir; or chew sweet tablets
suck a lozenge; or swallow pellets
foolish and stupid; minds closed to truth
shallow and stubborn; creeds blight our youth
righteous and pure; their justice is small
cruel and petty; their views destroy all
grab a cure-all; or rub a lotion
pop an antidote; or down potion
drink elixir; or chew sweet tablets
suck a lozenge; or swallow pellets


Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman

"The Harpy"

Blizzard Entertainment

 

Above all, she soars
Her vicious talons sharp
She swoops
Her wicked claws rip and tear
Into her own children
Cruelly she slices her prey
Ignores their anguished cries
Her evil hunger feeds upon the flesh of her babies
She devours their adoration
Her soul-eating cravings insatiable


Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman               

"The Mirage"


David Chapman-artist


a distant shimmering
promising relief
from the desert of my uncertainties
my youth
sought your false oasis
thirsted for love and approval
only to falter
steps leaden by oppression
dropping to my knees
supplicant
to receive one-drop-of-hope
before shunning

Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman





"Indulged or Spoiled"




A coin flip—
            Indulged
                        with
                                    nourishment
                                                attention
                                                            opportunity
                                                                        freedom
OR
            Spoiled
                        by
                                    coddling
                                                yielding
                                                            pandering
                                                                        capitulating
            Indulged
                        with
                                    comfort
                                                ease
                                                            safety
                                                                        certainty
OR
            Spoiled
                        by
                                    luxury
                                                indifference
                                                            idleness
                                                                        privilege


Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman



                                                                       

Wednesday, April 19, 2023

"Liar"

 



Full eye contact with head tilted “just so”
The words he speaks ring false and hollow
He moves his hand smoothly down her arm
Tries to blind her with his deceitful charm
His veneer appears glossy and smooth
He’s a trickster who distorts the truth
Through a phony wink and cocked eyebrows
He seduces with his empty vows
He manipulates her emotions
By conjuring deceptive notions
He craves her devotion on a whim
As her passion means nothing to him
He’s a con artist, a promoter
He’s barren inside—a pretender.

Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman





"This Week"

Words

         Batter—
                  Become wounding fists
                           Punching gut
Fury
         Rages—
                  Mauls rational thought
                           Devouring differences
Cruelty
         Cuts—
                  Cultivates hateful insanity
                           Breeding spite
I recoil in disbelief
         Evaluate—
                  Nurture my flagging sensibilities
                           Defending choice
I fold into myself
         Protect—
                  Shield my diminishing spirit
                           Blocking pain
I triage my wounds
         Heal—
                  Bind my bleeding-heart liberalism
                           Seeking restoration

Copyright 2018 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman

"Lost Child"


Little boy with bright mischievous eyes
And no control over his actions
In kindergarten he remains friendless
No other child walks with him—arm flung around his shoulders—sharing secrets
In first grade he cannot read
His wildness presses against school’s restraints
As he fights conformity
No other child walks with him—arm flung around his shoulders—sharing secrets
Second grade demands attention
But numbers whirl by in him
Until he becomes senseless and numbed by Adderall
No other child walks with him—arm flung around his shoulders—sharing secrets
He slows down and gives up
Submitting to rules and regulations
Molding himself into submission
Still—
No other child walks with him—arm flung around his shoulders—sharing secrets




Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman




"Laundry"

 

one pile expands in the bedroom
a second blocks the hallway’s path
a third’s stuffed into a hamper
another explodes in our bath

mutating exponentially
as every day passes by
an alien infiltration
makes all our clothing multiply

on Saturday mornings I climb
over mountainous stinky stacks
by shifting and swiftly sorting
they yield to my vicious attacks

whites swirl into boiling water
while colors churn in icy cold
then they tumble in fluffy air
once dried, each gets a tidy fold

the end of a tedious day
finds every item in its place
fatigue anchors me to the couch
where I know I’ve won the race

 . . . until next week!




Copyright 2019 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman 

"Your Silence"

 

I have no excuse for hurting you
Saying
“I didn’t understand”
doesn’t erase your pain
When you stripped bare
our differences,
I built a defensive wall
to shelter our friendship
to protect us from the World’s invasive
discord and discontent
I begged for less
Your silence honors me





Copyright 2018 Elizabeth Abrams Chapman